I don’t feel like myself and I’ve had no appetite whatsoever.. It is really weird. It’s like, I like that guy so much that my body is all “wtfwtf” and flips out or something. I dunno, it’s hard to explain (or better yet, I don’t know how to explain it).
I loved it when he was hugging me and holding hands and dancing with me and talking in his car to me.
“I lose myself in all these fights,
I lose my sense of wrong and right;
I cry, I cry;
It’s shaking from the pain that’s in my head,
I just wanna crawl into my bed,
And throw away the life I led,
But I won’t let it die, but I won’t let it die.”—"It’s not over" by Secondhand Serenade.
I can’t get the fact that I saw my good friends dogs’ death a few days ago; it’s replaying in my head: we (me, Lindsay and Tyler) were sitting around a smoking bonfire, the sky sending down light raindrops. We were talking about death and on the current subject of Lindsay’s grandfather when there came the sound of a truck coming down the front, gravel road. Max, one of Lindsay’s two beloved dogs, runs towards the road while Lindsay is yelling, “Max! Come back! Max!”. Before you know it, the truck comes clipping down the road and we eventually hear a sound similar to a gunshot; we then knew Max got hit and Lindsay starts running towards him screaming bloody murder. He was running down the road towards the vehicle and we were sure he was dead on contact, but upon further inspection from Lindsay, he wagged his tail a few times as well as breathe in a couple of shallow breaths. Afterwards everyone else, Michael (Lindsay’s brother), her mom and dad come outside with flashlights and are awestruck; they go straight to where Lindsay and Max are laying on the road. The truck didn’t stop, and in fact, kept driving down the road until they were out of sight.
Max didn’t make it.
Rest in peace.
We will love you forever and I hope you are up in doggy heaven enjoying all that you do; you will forever be in our hearts and remain as Lindsay’s favourite pet.
I hope the driver burns in hell for what they did.